I want to break free - from your lies and your self satisfaction

(I want to break free)
(I want to break free)
I want to break free from your lies
You're so self satisfied I don't need you
I've want to break free
God knows, God knows I want to break free

I've fallen in love
I've fallen in love for the first time
And this time I know it's for real
I've fallen in love, yeah
God knows, God knows I've fallen in love

It's strange but it's true
I can't get over the way you love me like you do
But I have to be sure
When I walk out that door
Oh how I want to be free, baby
Oh how I want to break free,
Oh how I want to break free

But life still goes on
I can't get used to, living without, living without,
Living without you by my side
I don't want to live alone, hey
God knows, got to make it on my own
So baby can't you see
God knows, gods know, gods know
I've want to break free

Queen - I want to break free

2008...

Said to many friends ... " DAMN... 2008 went Fuc%ing fast right!!!..

Seems like just yesterday was STYLO KL.. and damn... its the 31st of December now..

Well.. its a nice time to look back of my life this year..

in January... hmmh.. dont remember much of 2007/2008 new year, only that I was in Midvalley with the Stylistics for a ballroom show or as somone said it ("the stylisTITS from Penisville)... those of you who remember wut happened well good for you!!!! or it was a show whichi donated RM100,000.000 to Malaysian Aids i think but it was said as RM100... well that wut happens when you get an alcoholic emcee....hahahahha

anyways... Lotsa friends I met, lotsa enemies I made too... some one once told me "I'm loved by hundreds but hated by thousands"well.. dude.. after meeting you... i added another number to your hate list cheers MR.BUB*.... hahahahaha (What a name rite)

hahahah...

Also I guess I've fale in Love this year.. yes IN LOVE... o the 20th of July 2008.. will always be a date in my memory..

Despite the many disagreements we had, the countless times my patience was lost... I still love her dearly.

For the first time in my 24 years of life (to some I:M STILL 21!!!), i think ive actually fallen. fallen so deep, i dont wanna other getting up.

Well.. peeps..

I wish all if you that read this (and those who dont) a Happy and prosperous 2009.

May you find happiness and joy in the coming year, and may you live like a king (ok la i watched too much 300) hahahaha..

Cheers ppl and to my love... I love you, and I hope for many more years to come!

Grateful?

How can someone say you take them for granted?

Wut is being taken for granted?

its easy for someone to point a finger and say something,

its easy to say someone is childish. very.

They say to heed your own words, but yet they do not understand even the meaning of what they ask...

for example;

you sit on my table, then ignore me, like I aint there. then you feed the person, again like I aint there.

Then i go for a walk, your friends then sit in my place, I come back to move my stuff, I suddenly became like a complete stranger ..... AT MY OWN TABLE!. then i move my stuff of, and apologize for being there?

WTF?!

fine....

I wont say anything, cause if I do, its me being childish right? fine... 

anyways, thats my frustration for today... what;ll be next I wonder?

more than timings...

Apart from bad timings... its even worse when someone says they are gonna do something, then be all hyped up about it.. then just forget about it..

IT VERY VERY Annoying.. especially when someone has already bad timings, dont keep to appointments, can you even trust them to get the job done?

A lot of ppl are full of talk, but as the organisation NATO.. No Action, Talk Only.

A lot of ideas, a lot of talk, but NO follow through..

Haih.. frustrating aint it?

These ppl are wut I term as, things along the way with no back bone... (a bit long eh)

They have no vision, 

They dont plan for anything for the future

They claim they want to do a lot, but there;s always something in the way

They wont work or be focused as a result of no vision

They are always full of excuses, to try and justify something..

Weird...

timings...

Why do people commit when they cant?

Why do people over promise but under deliver?

Why do people set a time and yet not show up?

Do they not know that they keep others waiting?

That they keep others expectant?

Why all the hype but no action?

WHY? WHyY WHY?

I've had people say they are downstairs (my office is 2 floors up). So I go down, they are NOT there. Then you cal them then they say their parking. Then you wait another 10 mins, call them, and guess wut? They wont answer their calls. Then they call you back and say, 'oh, i was in Bangsar Shopping Centre, thought your office was there' (My office is in Telawi BTW). Then they rock up 1 hour later.

DO YOU KNOW HOW FREAKING FRUSTATIING THAT IS??? and the best part, he wants to see me to do a business deal, AND its the first time meeting me. How professional.

Then other times, you get someone saying they are coming at 2, and they will hurry, but at 4pm, you still dont see them. And then you ask them and they say 'you still in bangsar?' What kind of no brainer is that???? I mean, you supposed to meet me in Bangsar, and then you ask me where I am, when you are already 2 hours late?...

I personally feel, there are 3 reasons for this

1) They are just indisciplined and lazy.

2) they are compulsive pathological liars.

3) they dont give 2 hoots bout other ppl cause they seem to think they are better off.

Whichever the reason is... .. If you find yourself in this category, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!

ITs not that difcult to send a text to say you'll be late or something, rather than keep quiet and wait for the other person to ask.

If you have a problem with timing, DEAL WITH IT! People dont have to get use to your late comings. It only shows how unprofessional you are.

"Things could be worse"

If you thought your life was bad or shitty, things could be worse.....

Your wife turned Lesbo, your daughter's a slut

Your son, Richard Junior, likes dicks in his butt.

Your boss is an asshole who thinks you're a jerk.

You'd rather be beaten than show up for work.

The bank has foreclosed on that dump you call home

There's less hairs on your head than those stuck in your comb.

Your car just got reposed, your daughter's with child

Your dyke wife informs you, divorce has been filed.

Your dog got run over by the neighbor you hate,

and you know its your fault for not closing the gate

Just when you thought your life could'nt suck anymore,

you discover your dick has an open sore.

You go to your doctor who just shakes his head,

so make the decision you'll better be off dead.

But the only pill on your medicine shelf,

that you can OD on to finish yourself

is a bottle of Viagra, so you take every one,

waiting for death, but experiencing none.

Instead of those damn pills ending your life,

your dick just falls off, increasing your strife.

SO always remember, whatever your pain,

whatever your problems that drive you insane,

Someone, somewhere is worse off than you

In the overall picture, your problems are few.

NOW, shut the fuck up and get me a beer!

This Life

Day in Day out

Morn comes, a new day is seen,

From my humble abode I go into the wolf's lair

And there I will be for the next freaking 16 hours or so per freaking day...!!!!

Is this what I want?

Is this the life I choose to lead?

To not have a life out of my weekends?

Dinners are cancelled, plans are cancelled,

Friends become acquaintances which in time will reduce to just mere strangers

Many roads lie ahead, many paths are before me,

which one do I choose? What do I do?

We can speculate the end point, but we cant think of the journey.

A decision only I can make for myself, why burden others with this questions, fool I am to think theyd care.

Something I must think hard about.

The choices I choose to live life by...