Dejavu.....

Thursday 1/5/2008

The wound still bleeds, the pain still exist.... in the meantime ive sorta been seeing this person.. i dunno if seeing would be the right word, dunno wats it all about, maybe just close friends which i miscontruded... I dunno..

Had a morning meet with Mike, for some other work... Went to have a look at my car, and this other person.. hmmh i'll just call her 'K' la... was with me...

Told me she had a movie with someone, cool, i say, enjoy urself k...

Dropped her at Gardens, and i moved on home to practice some bass..

Promised Sean i would take him for a movie, so picked him up at 6.45 went to Gardens, booked a show for 9.00pm
damn.. like 2 hours.. wut to do..

Decided to go get something to eat...
Went down to Burger King, .... K called and then joined us with M...

walked around a bit, left them at 8..

Went for my movie, sat tru it...
K text me at about 10 ish... replied her..

Left the movies at bout 11.15.. still no reply called her 3 times no answer..

Starting to worry a lil..

Sent sean home...
Called her again still no answer...

More worrying...
Reached home... and he is not at home as well...

I called again no reply, checked with her housemate, she's not back..
My heart starts to pound...

Called D and got M's number, called M and also no answer..

and then i get a text from K... ' I'm with him'

yeah like ok... at least tell from the beggining la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

twas bout 1am i think...

Anyways... another slap taken...

What goes up must come down....

Wednesday - 30/4/2008.
Sneaked off from D, avoided the beers with some stupid story i conjured up.. hehe
Had to reach 1U by 6.30pm to pick up Def, but then had to wait for a certain someone to come down, get in the car only to tell me 'errr.... actually ah, i not going with you la, someone pickin me up' LIKE HELLO DONT MAKE ME WAIT 30 MINS THEN TELL ME'!!!!!!!!

Anyways, went down to 1U.. arrived at 7.45.. got a lil shelling from def for being more than an hour late.. sigh...

Managed to calm her down... By saying 'we go eat later k' haha.. dat was easy...

ps : anyone reading this DONT tell her

Went down to LG, met with Joseph and Bri boy... got in to MODA, had some really strong drinks
Thanks to Leng from Zouk...

Sat down, MODA was alright, except the part that IT WAS LIKE 2 HOURS LONG!!!!!!!!!
during the awards there was no backstage assistants to pass the awards out, the president had to run back get the awards and then give it out, and plus the best thing happened.... Durin photoshoot, 1 of the awards the 'crystal' ball fel off... hahahah

Oh and btw.... I think it was 'Kasutpanas' doing the event... good job guys!!!!

Anyways... me and def left to have some dinner in Italianees... which was good, except she was a lil pre occupied with some work issues...

Then we went down to laundry to join some friends...
and there he stood...
Another face i just did not need to see....
Another slap, straigh to my face... ARGH!!!

She went to him, they laughed and they chatted and they hugged... how loving... yeah..
I was left to chil wit one of her friends...
Forced ti put on a fake smile through out the night...

It was the longest night of my life.. it felt like days, but in reality it was just 1.5 hours...

The lights when it came on, when the DJ say 'good night' it was probably the best thing i could have seen or heard... never have i been do happy!!!!

We left i asked her if she could go back wit her friend as i did not wanna eat, so she did....


sigh... even as friends I still get shot...

the night was over, the morning was near, but the wound just keeps bleeding....

Goodbye love...

I don't really want to say goodbye

I don't really want to leave you

But now u have to go away

and I stay away from you forever

What we had was something special

Deep down from our hearts

But now u have to go away

And leave me from your heart

Confused...

What is this feeling I have?

I seem to love you

But other times I seem to loathe you

I can't be without you

Or maybe just without anyone

I think about you all the time

But why do I have this feeling?

I long for your voice

And I would die to hear your laugh

But is this love

Or merely lust?

RAW

It's nice new placein Solaris, went there by accident just out of pure boredom.
Great place... found nice solitude fo rmyself and alcohol...

All emotions and feeligns crushed as soon as the barman greeted me...

His face brought back so many memores and images..

The memory of walking in my house, of figuring out why the door was lock...

The feeling of my heart pounding away...

The cold sweat that treaded down my forehead...

The thoughts that flashed my mind...

The minute i opened the door....

The expression i saw....

The betrayal that slapped me across the face...

The hurt, the pain...

....


Trying to put the thought behind me and get it over, the fact that 2 years of my life was a complete waste of time... Then when all is calm... I see the face that stirs it up... the person who can invoke a great deal of energy from me... the face of one my beloved betrayed me upon...

Why do we love and let love?
Why live and let live?

......

STYLO....

STYLO...? Dont ask me who chose the name....DONT!

its approx 22 days to the day... life is just so hectic, 18 hour work days with no off days..

It Sucks!!!

Just to say it!

Bali....08

6/01/2008... depart from KL at 4.40... get on the plane fly through rain clouds all the way to Bali.. after many sequences of my life flashing by..Touchdown at 7.40 in Denpasar (Pictures to come)

Looked around for my pick up... no sign.. and stupid mobil phone just wont roam.. ARGH!!!

Found a public telephone, made the call, met with up with Mike.

Headed on down south to Jimbaran, apparently where the best seafood is found on the island

Nice place, it was on the beach literally. Went to a shop called Megna cafe, which is the best and also where the bomb was.. Scary....

Left Jimbaran to Ku De Ta, had a couple of drinks, did not take any photos though...then checked in in Casa Indigo, a boutique minimalist hotel in Jln Petitenget, Semiyak... nice place.. Per night is RP400k.. Website is http://www.casaindigobali.com/

Yeah.. pictures was taken next morning... after i messed the place up

Anyways, Mike and Danielle left for home, and me... with my itchy legs, started to paint Bali in a nice shade of red.....Took a taxi to Kuta/Legian, where all the Aussie beer fulled belly ppl were, hit a few clubs, Gals were very nice to the eye haha

1st stop, Poppies, twas alright, moderately packed, nothing interesting, next stop, Bounty, has 2 floors, upstairs for R&B and downstairs for House. House floor was dead... and R&B was just pumping... Lotsa gals.. and guys witout shirts.. hot sticky and stinky..

Went on to other clubs around... Nothing interesting.. Which idot would wanna club on a sunday right...

Back to casa.. zzzzzzzz

Day 2 : Woke up with many calls from mike to have breaksfast, dragged myself outta bed.. packed my stuff, went down to ku de ta, had an english breakfast, very nice... After breakfast went around town, just roaming aimlessly... nothing interesting..

Met up with some friends in the evening.. back in Ku De Ta.. really getting hooked to this place.. nice..

Went around in the area.. still not much action on a monday. Had to leave early cause now moving into Mike's house...in Seminyak

Had the whole place to myself... Nice.. well at least till some point haha...

ZZZzzzzzzzzz

Day 3. Woke up at 10.30 with a massive hangover, went breakfast in Daydream.. forgot the cam..sigh..

Went with Mike for furniture shopping and a massage... Clean Massage.. Headed back home to pack stuff again, now going to Sanur, the Ylang Ylang villa which is where i'll be staying for the rest of my stay...

...Nothing much to say bout the house.. and the bathroom.. oooooooooooooooh the bathroom...

Now also has been granted permission to use the car.... its time to drive around Bali.. but right now.. too tired to write more.. Will continue tomorrow....